How am I? >> It's interesting, this is a question that didn't used to have much meaning to me. >> It was just a question I had to end before I could order my coffee in the morning. The morning. I hadn't been awake during the morning for months now. >> In fact, I usually wake up around noon. >> That sounds bad. And trust me, I know it is, but I couldn't count the number of friends I have who wake up after two most days. >> I really can't blame them though. >> It's a lot easier to get through the hard times if you're not really conscious for most of it, I think I get why animals hibernate now. So here I am living through what many are terming as the defining event of my generation get somehow it doesn't feel real to me. >> And maybe that's because to some extent it isn't as real for me, the rest of my college campus. I was heartbroken when I got the email that the semester was over and we were to leave campus as soon as possible. >> It was rather depressing start to my 21st birthday, but still I knew I had a place to relocate to immediately. >> I didn't have to deal with what was instant homelessness for so many of my peers. And since that day, I've been protected by living with both of my parents at home. The dangers I face are incredibly limited compared to the thousands and thousands were deemed essential and putting their lives at risk every single day. To reason that livings as pandemic doesn't feel real to me, is because I'm barely living through it. >> I'm being protected from the worst of the tragedy because of my social class and just beyond unfair. I'm eternally grateful to be safe during these times, but I cannot help but ask, Why me? Why have I been protected? >> But millions of other vulnerable americans completely ignored because I can't think of any other reason apart from my family's socioeconomic status, and they refuse to live in a world with this, reasoning is acceptable. >> So how am I going to lie? >> I miss my friends and I miss going to college every single day. But I get to survive this in, I get to survived this in a way that so many others will not, those are the frontlines, will suffer the PTSD of this tragedy for years to come. >> The families and friends of those who don't make it out of this will suffer a great loss that will stay with them for the rest of their lives. >> And I hope that once this is all over, someone will ask them, How are you.
Why I'm Okay
From Stephanie Bowman Doroba May 05, 2020
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Sansskruty Rayavarapu, a junior majoring in political science, shares her thoughts about life during a pandemic. Sansskruty submitted this message for the Voices of UD project, hosted by UD's Center for Political Communication. The CPC invites the UD community to join the conversation about how this new normal is affecting their relationships, the world, and the future. Voices of UD is open to all members of the UD community. Learn more at cpc.udel.edu/voicesofud.
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